Just let me whine and complain for this post. Don't continue reading if you already have a bad day and wouldn't want anything else to affect your mood... There are so many things in my mind that I would like to type it out here, of which mostly are complains, but are sensitive issues which I don't think I should be writing. O well, what to do, just do like what the army say, suck thumb lor. Just have to bear it within and see when will I explode.Life has pretty much been on the down side in camp this week. It has only been a few days since I moved over to my new company, but somehow I realised how many difficult people (or commanders) I have to live with for the next few months. I'm new to the place, not knowing a lot of rules, yet I was reprimand for minor mistakes. Only during this period of time do I know how many friends I have. I was thinking of who I may SMS to disturb them, but I realised that actually I have none whom I can turn to. Actually I do have friends whom I turn to at times, but I'm sure they are tired of hearing my complaints just like how I'm tired of how some of my friends would turn to me for help or to tell me about their problems, but they won't be there when I would need their listening ears.An easy target for people to boost their pride. Especially when I'm short, people will treat whatever that I say like as if I'm a small kid whose words do not mean anything at all, argue and pin me down with their logic, making me sound stupid and my theory wrong when both are correct. It is everywhere. Even Christians. I don't even need a junior holy spirit, but there are some out there. Putting their hands on my head like as if I'm some kind of wooden support, not like as if I do not know that you are tall while I am short. I already know that I'm short since 14 years old, being the shortest guy everywhere I go, I do not need reminder at all, just show me some respect as a human being can? I have my own sense of ego and pride too.
I'm tired of being seen as someone who have all the resources to anything, where people will come to me when they are down or when they need help, but they won't be there when I need them, or even ditch me aside with unkind words when their life is well. This isn't friendship at all.
If I have to give, I will also need to receive. I'm not santa claus. I'm a human...
 | bro... theres nothing wrong about being short!! =) wells.. you have my listening ears anytimee.. =) *listens* press on! |
 | Sakae Sushi will cheer you up. See you tomorrow evening! |
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